haha. today was okay i guess. watched the 19th episode of HEROS today and wtf la.! it stopped at the most exciting part AGAIN.

TOOT

sorry uncle.! i havent thought of a word to replace it yet =x

anyway, shall wait PATIENTLY for it. gees daddy, i super envy you for going all slow on heros. I SHOULD HAVE DONE THAT TOO.! i cant live with the suspense.. NO WAY.!

yep. we went to parkway today and i was DELIGHTED when i saw the ITEM i intended to get for my mom on mothers day(: but i read it in TEENS that its sold in HEEREN ( or however you spell it ) so i intended to get to heeren ( i dont know HOW to get there -.- ) on wed to get it but RAWR. i was super HAPPY when i saw it in PARKWAY. hah.!

SAVES TIME:D

right. its this beautiful couch made of.. velvet. or some sort. kind of furry, and it looks like it has alot of CLASS. hah(: and when the couch is opened, theres this mirror and its a jewelery box.

brilliant(: just the thing for my mom(:

hahahaha. its around.. 25 bucks ( biggest one ) and im still wondering which to get. hah. nevermind that. ITS CONVENIENT TO GET NOW. hah(:

anyway, we ate at jacks place earlier and my mom started telling me about her LOVE LIFE before she met my daddy.

fact number one : SHE ONLY HAD 2 STEADS.
fact number two : SHE BROKE UP WITH HER EX AFTER A YEAR.
fact number three : she broke up because HE WAS POSSESSIVE.

DOES THAT EVEN SOUND FAMILIAR.

gees. i froze when she said,' i broke up with him because he was WAY to possessive.! he doesnt even allow me to have anything to do with other guys.!'

OMGOMGOMGOMG.

no way.! IM FOLLOWING MY MOM'S FOOTSTEPS.!

anyway, after going on, she said something about having a really close guy friend that her ex totally hates. ( sounds like LEOW. ) and she said she is actually surrounded by guy friends and after going steady with him, she lost touch with most of her guy friends ( OMG.!? ) and so on. and they broke up later and lalala. you get my point.?

DO YOU GET MY POINT.?! im walking the very SAME path my mom took.! only he isnt my first =x

BUT STILL.! it was a tradegy.! ( OR HOWEVER YOU SPELL IT )

ohhh god. I DONT WANNA LOSE MY GAMBLE.

so much for risk. i shouldnt have even taken the risk.

ok cut the sad parts okay(: ben xiao jie today is HAPPY(: hahahaha. i finally got that STOOOOOPID nike bottle i was searching EVERYWHERE for. gees. i needed it BEFORE the SYF, not AFTER.

but whatever, i didnt get the lime green one because it was out of stock. blardy hell ):

hah. anyway, amanda han is deciding to QUIT her chocolate addict.! BELIEVE THAT. im so NOT amanda anymore if i dont take chocolates right.!

BUT I HAVE TO, AFTER HEARING FROM CHERYL THAT CHOCOLATES MAKE YOU LOSE YOUR MEMORY.!

no wonder im dumb-er than before huh ): ARGHHH. quit quit quit~!

RESEARCH SHOWS :

PROS

Chocolate may be better for your health than tea because it contains more of a chemical that could prevent cancer and heart disease, researchers have said.

catechins are found in chocolate

dark chocolate has four times as many.( hah. i dont eat dark chocolates(: )

Catechins are believed to protect against heart disease and cancer and so eating products that contain them could have health benefits. ( SHIT. )

chocolate is also known for being everything from an anti-depressant to an aphrodisiac.

CONS

They have discovered that chocolate can cause migraines, acne, obesity, dental cavities, heartburn, rectal itching, and coronary problems. ( OH NO.! ACNE.!? )

two chemicals in chocolate - theobromine and caffeine - as villains in a disorder known as fibrocystic breast disease. ( 1. i didnt know chocolate contained CAFFEINE.! 2. BREAST DISEASE.!?!??!?! )This benign ailment is characterized by fibrous tissue and cyst fluid in the breasts.

WOMEN WITH FIBROCYSTIC BREAST DISEASE ARE FOUR TIMES MORE LIKELY TO DEVELOP BREAST CANCER AS NORMAL WOMEN.

oh my $&@#()$*#_!)@#.!

Chocolate also is loaded with another chemical, phenylethylamine, a compound related to amphetamine. This can lead to emotional problems such as feelings of anger, irritability and confusion, depression, hyperactivity, hallucinations, and even violent behavior. ( dont have this yet i think.? HY[ERACTIVITY.! omg.?! VIOLENT.. errrrrrr uh oh... )

milk chocolate caused impaired memory and deteriorated penmanship as well as mental confusion for a nine-year-old boy. ( ohhhhh goddddd ): )

Most candy bars contain at least 45% sugar, and the rest is fat. A mere ounce of the stuff contains 151 calories. ( fat fat fat >< ) Although chocolate is very rich in magnesium, it is high in oxalic acid which in excess can inhibit calcium and other mineral absorption by the body. ( ohh godd. i feel like im gonna die early this lifetime.. )


ok. im NOT gonna find anymore. im gonna FAINT. god. im never taking chocolate anymore.. or any spices.. or MSG.

I DONT WANT ANY MAN MADE FOOOOOOOD.!

... what am i gonna eat in the future T-T

haha. i just read SOMEONE'S blog and i suppose its super obvious now isnt it leow.?

hahaha. im was sooo happy after i read it. ohhhh god. you didnt forget me >< hahahahaha yayayayaya~!

anyway, its all a misunderstanding i believe. i mean. xinyi's case... it has been a gone case since like FOREVER. so well, you dont have to worry at all. amanda is doing fine.! EXCEPT.

PHONE LOST.
HIT IN THE EYE.
COMPASS NEEDLE IN MY PALM.

ok and a whole lot more.

but anyway, i really thank you alot alot ALOT for all you've done for me, cared for me. everything. for the sacrifice.. im glad. im blessed to have someone like you(:

trust me, im gonna win this bet now and i am soooo confident that i would. by then, we can REUNITE and be BEST FRIENDS AGAIN.

thats my wish now.

good luck for your exams and all. haha. and god. i thought i was.. seeing things.
did i just see leow standing OUTSIDE class earlier.?

NO RIGHT.!? and leow. TAG ME LAAA. we dont talk in school, msn whatever. at least at my blog.. ):

ARGH. i hate to say this but I MISS YOU.

i so cant believe you even want to ruin the last thing that i can ever stay in your life silently.

right. i dont know HOW SUAY i can get.

no seriously. i know im always saying how suay and everything i can be but today's different.

mainly because... I GOT HIT IN THE EYE.

right. that SCARES people doesnt it.! we were practicing for the coming SYF and when we were doing the handstand, hana hit me when she was doing it and my specs went like SCRAPE. and bleh. THANK GOD but still, my eye lids on both the top and bottom ( including some other places at the eye part ) was BLEEDING. and i was so SLOW.

1. i blacked out.
2. i wondered why i blacked out
3. i held my eye wondering why it hurts like @#&!()#
4. i hear hana saying OMG I HIT HER. IM SO SORRY.
5. i realised im hit.

slow~! god.

right. after that, i was ESCORTED out by miss adilah ( how to spell )

M : ARE YOU OKAY.!? * looks *
A : of course.
M : OMGOMGOMG YOU'RE OKAY.?! SURE.?!
A : yes.? it doesnt hurt bad.
M : NO. FIRST AIDER. I NEED TO FIND.! * rushes *
A : * follows *
EVERY PASING TEACHER WAS MADE TO LOOK AT MY BRUISE ( CUT ) AND THEY MADE STUPID COMMENTS.

EG. OMG. I THINK SHE'LL HAVE TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL. she might have CONCUSSION.!

EG 2. OMG. SHE NEED STITCHES.!

Eg 3. AHHH. I THINK IT SCRATCHED HER EYEBALL.!

wtf is all these man. gees. whatever okay. its just a PI WAI SHANG. hahaha. i mean. WHATS THE DEAL.?!

worse thing is, MISS ADILAH DIDNT BRING ME TO THE TOILET. so i was like. walking around the school with my blood slowly dripping down my face. gees. i looked gruesome, i know. and i was so hoping i wouldnt pass the GO, in case i saw YOU KNOW. and he might get all.. OMG ARE YOU OKAY.!? I WANA KILL THAT PERSON or what so ever. hah.

anyway, finally i asked if i could GO TO THE TOILET and she went with me. she kept on going. YOU'RE OKAY RIGHT.? RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT.?! haiiyoooo -.- and she didnt even offer me tissue. so after i've washed my blood was STILL dripping and i had NO tissue. we went in the staff room and i really HOPED a teacher with common sense would GIVE ME TISSUEE.?!

i asked for it in the end anyway. dumb.

so it was okay la. i went to the doctor's today. hahaha. its just a pi wai shang. SEE. NO BIG DEAL. and no internal injuries. GOOD.

when i went back, we took a taxi. and guess what. I DROPPED MY HANDPHONE THERE. and THERE. my handphone is LOST and i called it several times but its switched off. sorry for the vulgarities but. FARK THAT MOTHER FARKING TAXI DRIVER FOR NOT RETURNING IT TO ME AND INTENDING TO STEAL IT. of course, fark amanda for being super retarded ):

see. just 3 days before, my charger dies off. now my phone's gone. wow. they're.. linked.? whatever. super farked.

anyway, today me and xinyi quarrelled. right. now im telling you this.

XINYI,
i chose not to give you the letter at all because it would make you UNHAPPY. i dont want you unhappy and NOT talking to me after it ( because i know you would even though you TRIED to promise me earlier ). i'd rather you NOT talking to me and be happy. it'll be better off that way wouldnt it.? anyway, you're blessed already. missing me in your life is nothing.

also, im sorry for blowing up on you because im making a hard decision. a really hard one. to choose whether i should show you and make you unhappy BUT still talk to me ( if you keep to your promise ) or not talk to me and be happy. the answer is obvious anyway. plus, i make my own decisions now. therefore, you have no rights to pull and tug me to show it to you no matter what just because we're best friends. the fact is, we're not. you're living in the past. im living in the future. face it.

my decisions are final, and i hope if you do not want to talk to me ever again, i wish you all the best in your Os and of couse, be happy always.

RETARD ALERT~!
omg im freaking in love with this song.! its just beside this post so CHECK IT OUT.
beware. its another one of those 'i know you like me' type of songs. but hey. they're FREAKING cool.!

[Chorus]
Circle circle dot dot (uh huh)
I got my cootie shot (uh huh)
You think that girl is hot (uh huh)
I think I'd rather not (uh huh) uh huh (okay) okay (okay)
I'll fuck her anyway

[Jamie Kennedy]
Circle circle dot dot, (uh huh)
I got my cootie shot (uh huh)
I think that booty's hot (uh huh)
I'd give it booty song
That booty's so I’ll make it drop to the drop drop to the drop drop to the make it drop
to the floor
Let’s get more (a huh) okay
Gimme some more

[Stu Stone]
We getting drunk now, with the shot shot to the shot shot to the shot shot
We going chase these not double stamp it no erases with the bap bap to the bap bap
Here comes the bouncer don’t get caught
Kindly introduce me to the friends that you brought
Uh huh (uh huh) ok (ok)
I'm having fun today

[Chorus 2x]

[Jamie Kennedy]
Yo circle circle dot dot
Yo this shit’s workin' please don’t stop
Now kindly please remove your top
And please don’t say that you’re a cop
Show me yours I’ll show you mine
And we'll play doctor until nine
Uh huh (uh huh) ok (ok)
Girl you drivin’ me insane

[Stu Stone]
Sane in the brain to the don't please to the menday
I spend should the spend spend to the plenty
We could do it hard we could do it gently
Everyday I pretend-a caraventlae
If you want Stu skis you can rent me (rent me)
If you want to see the piece check the pant leg
Uh huh (uh huh) ok (ok)
Come on everybody say

[Chorus]
Circle circle dot dot (uh huh)
I got my cootie shot (uh huh)
You think that girl is hot (uh huh)
I think I'd rather not (uh huh) uh huh (okay) okay (okay)
I'll fuck her anyway
Uh huh (uh huh) ok (ok) it’s time to hit the breaks

[Stu Stone]
Shake that shit yo shake that shit
Don’t fake that shit don’t break that shit
Shake that shit yo shake that shit
Shake that shit yo shake that shit…
Uh huh (uh huh) ok (ok) uh huh (uh huh) ok (okay!)

Circle circle dot dot (a huh)
I got my cootie shot (a huh)
You think that girl is hot (a huh)
I think I'd rather not (a huh) a huh (okay) okay (okay)
I'll fuck her anyway

Circle circle dot dot (a huh)
I got my cootie shot (a huh)
You think that girl is hot (a huh)
I think I'd rather not (a huh) a huh (okay) okay (okay)
I'll fuck her anyway

rawr. hahah. today was retarded can>< AGAIN I CANT TYPE IT HERE CAUSE ITS OPEN TO ALL. damn it la~!

hahaha. forget it. 2 days ago, i had this stupid compass ( that maths instrument ) pierced right through my palm. of course the needle isnt SO LONG that it'll like. appear at the other end. hahaha. but the whole needle went in and it was dangling out of my hand.

god i almost fainted.

i stared at it really long wondering why there isnt any blood oozing out of it. almost instantly, when i took the damn thing off my palm, blood gushed out like it was nobody's business.! it dripped like mad and i had to wash it so much ( and check if the needle had any rust. thank god there wasnt.! OR IS IT ALREADY IN MY BLOOD.?! )

whatever.

i didnt die. SEE. proves that THERE ISNT RUST. or. amanda is too strong to die from some stupid rusting in some stupid COMPASS NEEDLE.

IM SO GONNA THROW THE GOD DAMN THING AWAY.

and to dear XINYI.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR(:

i know we havent really been on talking terms and all.. and im guessing that you dont even KNOW i have a blog. but whatever. happy birthday(:

crap post. bro made me do this.!

1) Do the following without complaints.
2) Choose 5 persons to do this after you have completed yours.
3) Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged.

Favourite colour: pink

Favourite food: CHOCOLATES(:

Favourite movie: not much of a movie person.

Favourite sport: heh. not much of a sports person x)

Favourite day of the week: FRIDAYS(: starting of the HOLIDAYS:D

Favourite ice-cream: chocolate.?

Favourtie TV shows: HEROS~!

Current mood: EMO

Current taste: taste.. im not eating.?

Current clothes: PAJAMAS(:

Current desktop: ER.?

Current toenail colour: im a guy.

Current time: 12:04 am

Current annoyance: personal problems / damn hair

Current thoughts: how to pass xinyi the letter.?

First best friend: suddenly i have no idea. best family members are of course UNCLE and DADDY(:

First crush: hmmm. lalalala~

First movie: err. titanic.? I DONT KNOW.

First lie: wow. maybe its MOMMY I LOVE YOU.

Last cigarette: 2nd hand or first.?

Last drink: water ( gotta pee soon(: )

Last car ride: to.. SCHOOL:D

Last crush: hah. majority knows.?

Last phone call: AIK HAI. hahahahahaha x)

Last CD played: JAY CHOU'S ting mama de hua(:

Have you ever dated one of your best friends: nope.?

Have you ever broken the law: gay walked, stole erm. signals =x, stole when i was younger, BIT STOLEN STRAWS(:

Have you ever been arrested: wow. and im still here.

Have you ever skinny dipped: im skinny but im not dipped.? in what.?

Have you ever kissed someone you don't know: I BELIEVE NOT.! i still have my first kiss OKAY.?!

5 lucky people : aiiyo. i dont force(: unlike my stupid bro. hah. do if you wanna. its super UBER lame. seriously. even those in friendster has better questions than this. maybe i should do those one day.

i have just written a 6 pages long essay to my dear xinyi, telling her the truth of all truths. feeling kind of emo now. hah. emo amanda. there we go again(:

i believe after reading that, she wouldnt wanna talk to me ever again, whether anort its because she is guilty or she totally hates me. whatever it is, i respect her decision in whatever she INTENDS to do.

all i know is i tried hard to satisfy her. and if it is not enough, then i dont know what is.

i dont know. all these made me think of someone i hoped to forget. haha. thats right. hi leow. its been a long time. thats for the luck today. i really felt so happy recieving it. ( despite forgetting today's the chem practical day ) its been forever since we last talked and boy, i've missed you loads. hahaha. im sorry but i just do. i tried ignoring you, keeping my glance off you in school but HEY. its not working. i end up walking in your path ALWAYS and i seriously know how hard it was for you and ahem to go through. yes the feeling totally sucks that you'd wish to end it as fast as possible.

only difference is i dont want to end it. but neither do i want it to begin again.

my gamble has yet to announce the winner, and thus i have to keep my mind off you for the time being. im so sorry for neglecting you on that part, but i really need to wait till the time they would finally announce the winner. whatever it is, i will never regret what i've decided and even if i lost or won, i guess it doesnt really matter. what would only hurt is me, being deceived again. no.? anyway i've gone through so much that i think its soo normal to me that it doesnt even matter anymore.

in fact, nothing matters anymore.

losing you was hard, losing xinyi was horrible. for a decision that required such big risks like this, i know i shouldnt even THINK of trying but i already did. i know you respect my decision too and i thank you for all you've done for me. as for xinyi, i hope you'll understand after reading that 'essay' and hopefully, you wouldnt blame me for it or show it around and create unnecessary uproars. or whatever.

ok. i think i'll stop crapping and get over my emo-ness. today wasnt a very good day either. MY DAMN HAIRRRRR. its SO SHORT. noooooooooooooo~! ITS A TOTAL LAUGHING STALK. i KNOW.!!!!! i dont know what to do with it T-T

gees. life doesnt get any better than this does it(:

me and mommy(:



BIG SMILE(:
haha my dad x)

more me-s(:

mom and dad. how sweet(:

me 'hawai-ian' style, with that flower thing they gave me after i landed x)

me against the mirror x)
FIRST DAY IN PHUKET look x)


in the lounge waiting for the trip to our dinner place.!!

another one. dying of hunger down there.

had one of these for dinner. weird thing.
hahaha whatever. it tasted nice =x



taken at the resturant(:


same place(:

whole family this time(:


some revolting looking vodoo dolls i got there x)

the view outside the hotel(:

THE SECOND DAY LOOK(:

haha did this on the hotel computer downstairs when the damn internet isnt working ):

see how bored i am.? and LOOK AT THE EYE BAGS. man.

i know i look retarded. dont tell me =x

haha. the room behind is the bowling alley PLUS the pool area(: where we TOTALLY spent SO much time there x)

the aquarium(: or how you spell it -.-

me in front of that aquarium(:
lalalalala

eating some CABBAGE.?! or whatever it is >< a scenery at.. some place i forgot the name =x

my mom(:

me and my bro x)

their sacred animal(:

the temple in the open space.!

MOM with some act cool pose x)

now thats cute(:

lalala(:

this picture makes me sad ):
its like. a beautiful place with hills and greenery turned into.. this.
):

i'll update the rest someday la. damn tired liao x)