right. i dont know HOW SUAY i can get.

no seriously. i know im always saying how suay and everything i can be but today's different.

mainly because... I GOT HIT IN THE EYE.

right. that SCARES people doesnt it.! we were practicing for the coming SYF and when we were doing the handstand, hana hit me when she was doing it and my specs went like SCRAPE. and bleh. THANK GOD but still, my eye lids on both the top and bottom ( including some other places at the eye part ) was BLEEDING. and i was so SLOW.

1. i blacked out.
2. i wondered why i blacked out
3. i held my eye wondering why it hurts like @#&!()#
4. i hear hana saying OMG I HIT HER. IM SO SORRY.
5. i realised im hit.

slow~! god.

right. after that, i was ESCORTED out by miss adilah ( how to spell )

M : ARE YOU OKAY.!? * looks *
A : of course.
M : OMGOMGOMG YOU'RE OKAY.?! SURE.?!
A : yes.? it doesnt hurt bad.
M : NO. FIRST AIDER. I NEED TO FIND.! * rushes *
A : * follows *
EVERY PASING TEACHER WAS MADE TO LOOK AT MY BRUISE ( CUT ) AND THEY MADE STUPID COMMENTS.

EG. OMG. I THINK SHE'LL HAVE TO GET TO THE HOSPITAL. she might have CONCUSSION.!

EG 2. OMG. SHE NEED STITCHES.!

Eg 3. AHHH. I THINK IT SCRATCHED HER EYEBALL.!

wtf is all these man. gees. whatever okay. its just a PI WAI SHANG. hahaha. i mean. WHATS THE DEAL.?!

worse thing is, MISS ADILAH DIDNT BRING ME TO THE TOILET. so i was like. walking around the school with my blood slowly dripping down my face. gees. i looked gruesome, i know. and i was so hoping i wouldnt pass the GO, in case i saw YOU KNOW. and he might get all.. OMG ARE YOU OKAY.!? I WANA KILL THAT PERSON or what so ever. hah.

anyway, finally i asked if i could GO TO THE TOILET and she went with me. she kept on going. YOU'RE OKAY RIGHT.? RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT.?! haiiyoooo -.- and she didnt even offer me tissue. so after i've washed my blood was STILL dripping and i had NO tissue. we went in the staff room and i really HOPED a teacher with common sense would GIVE ME TISSUEE.?!

i asked for it in the end anyway. dumb.

so it was okay la. i went to the doctor's today. hahaha. its just a pi wai shang. SEE. NO BIG DEAL. and no internal injuries. GOOD.

when i went back, we took a taxi. and guess what. I DROPPED MY HANDPHONE THERE. and THERE. my handphone is LOST and i called it several times but its switched off. sorry for the vulgarities but. FARK THAT MOTHER FARKING TAXI DRIVER FOR NOT RETURNING IT TO ME AND INTENDING TO STEAL IT. of course, fark amanda for being super retarded ):

see. just 3 days before, my charger dies off. now my phone's gone. wow. they're.. linked.? whatever. super farked.

anyway, today me and xinyi quarrelled. right. now im telling you this.

XINYI,
i chose not to give you the letter at all because it would make you UNHAPPY. i dont want you unhappy and NOT talking to me after it ( because i know you would even though you TRIED to promise me earlier ). i'd rather you NOT talking to me and be happy. it'll be better off that way wouldnt it.? anyway, you're blessed already. missing me in your life is nothing.

also, im sorry for blowing up on you because im making a hard decision. a really hard one. to choose whether i should show you and make you unhappy BUT still talk to me ( if you keep to your promise ) or not talk to me and be happy. the answer is obvious anyway. plus, i make my own decisions now. therefore, you have no rights to pull and tug me to show it to you no matter what just because we're best friends. the fact is, we're not. you're living in the past. im living in the future. face it.

my decisions are final, and i hope if you do not want to talk to me ever again, i wish you all the best in your Os and of couse, be happy always.