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`24
Thursday, May 31, 200710:08 AM
hah. daddy knows me sooooo damn well.

OF COURSE AMANDA WOULD SNEAK TO COME ONLINE AGAIN.
what can a little ban do to me.?

anyway, i've been given the choice yesterday. either to lie to everyone to hang out with my bestest bestest ex-friend so he'll change his mind about me or choose to leave it. in other words, FORGET ME.

god thats kind of hard to decide. really.

but i seriously think. after that outing, i think the outcome would be the same still. cause im still with him see.

haii. i'll take more time to think about that. i still have tomorrow to decide. ):

and yea, recently i've been watching MTV. hah. like FINALLY my mom got me SCV with MTV.

RAWR LA. i mean WHOSE SCV DOESNT HAVE MTV.?!
right. mine. hah.

but hell. the song THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES by FOB has been playing and playing over and over and GOD. i really liked the MV.!

this guy, pete wentz. i guess he was the MAIN in this MV, though i admit that this vid is totally GAYYY. but hell with that. this guy is hawt.

hahahaha. clement you SO cannot get jealous over him x)
but i heard one of them is GAY. like really. the type who likes the same sex type of gay. hah. i wonder if this is that guy. it'll be a real pity though. seriously. hah.


i SO have to steal my FOB songs back from my dad.! ):

it is super unfair that i have to watch it only when my parents are not at home though. ( they said they suscribed the entire box for me cause my teacher said i lacked KNOWLEDGE. uh huh. so i have to watch DISCOVERY CHANNEL. like. heck all that. )

hahahahaha. whatever la. at least life is well. almost back on track. hah. thank god for that i guess. and STUDY GROUPS :D its SUCH a good way to get out and have FUNNN(:

this web must SO change the name. hah

you're NERDIFIED(:
thats so daddy(:

DADDY I MISS YOU(:
UNCLE I MISS YOU(:
leow. hah. i missed you since forever.! ESPECIALLY AFTER YESTERDAY.
hahaha. who did i miss(;
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`23
Friday, May 25, 20076:02 PM
this may be the last time im going online so im gonna make it my LAST post. hah

anyway, first things first. i dont know whether to be angry with you, leow. but based on how i feel now. im just.. well. sad. but to hell with it. just make sure it doesnt leak. in fact, i think it doesnt matter anymore.

cause i told him what i wrote there.

he didnt agree of course, and we went through the pre-breakup process. but this time, i was must FIRMER and STRONGER. i stood up for myself that i feel UNFAIR about whatever is happening. hah. but anyway, we made a pact ( something i cant say here CAUSE SOMEONE DONT LET ME )

but i think im gonna get what i want soon(:

and leow, best of luck to your chinese, and ch as well. i hoped the info i gave you pleased you.
and of course, repaying me back by 'betraying' me. well done(:

at first i was depressed and all. but hey.! WHAT MORE CAN I ASK FOR. i've done my job as an ex-friend. i have so many people who actually care for me. seriously, thank you for doing that to me leow, though i'll never hate you, i seriously thank you for making me realise that i am BLESSED.

but now im even MORE blessed(:

LIFE'S GONNA BE BACK ON TRACK AGAIN SOOOOOOOOOOON:D
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`22
Tuesday, May 22, 200711:40 PM
hah. days hasnt been going well for people too i guess.

im super worried for my dear ah pek ): [ uncle and daddy, he's your FATHER ].
it seems that something really REALLY bad has happened and he looked really dull with puffy eyes in school today.

god i feel so like. im not his friend at all. not because he doesnt tell me things or whatsoever. its just that.. it feels like i can never be with him in times of need. we're always like. CROSSING EACH OTHER.! a little like, when i walk left, he walks right. hah. you get the picture.

whatever it is, i do hope i can help him with his problem.. though i dont know whats going on, but seeing my ah pek so hurt in school makes me wanna cry ): MY DEAR AH PEK CANNOT CRY LAAA. so old liao. later what if he gets sick.!? and PLUS. what if he decides to do silly things.! it'll be... WHITE HAIR-ED PEOPLE SENDING BLACK HAIR-ED PEOPLE OFF [ im older than him though.. im his grand daughter. hah ]

i knew i should come online at 11 sharp. stupid compo. arghhh. then i wouldnt have missed seeing you online. goddd laaa. well. i'll pray for you my dear, please take care AND MAKE SURE I DONT LOSE AN AH PEK.

or should i say, my only grand father ):

yep. problems for me are already solved(: at least i listened, i made the first move. i gave her the sweet, purely because i thought she might like it ( since its hello kitty ) so well, she was happy i guess.. but i heard she was scared at first, because of the letter attached behind it.

god. do i write frightening letters.?
maybe i do. =/

but to hell with that, at least she said HI to me. THOUGH SHE WASNT LOOKING AT ME, she still said it right. hah.

but hey.! it just shows.. it might work well.. or it might not. but whatever. seriously. since we only have this few months to go, if we continue to fight this cold war, hah. both of us would freeze to death even before we know who is the winner. i've already vent my anger on clement yesterday, who was quite a good punching bag, cause hes darn cool HAH. but lalalala. thanks hawtie for my LP(:

and. aik. hah. at least im okay with him now. i told peiting my story. and for the first time in MY life, she actually understood me. hah. only maybe i shouldnt use FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE but its true.! its like. SHES THE ONLY PERSON WHO AGREED. like who actually agreed to what i really felt. im not accusing the others of not being understanding and all. i know they do care. they all do. but it just seems that.. well i dont know. peiting isnt fond of aik either, but she knows why im doing everything im doing now, and im glad to say she supports me.

oh god. its been a while since i had someone supporting me ( IN SCHOOL ) for the things i do.
i still miss you leow.

and well. there. my life. not that screwed anymore. i finished this book called LITTLE WHITE LIES, which really suited me, UNFORTUNATELY, and im pretty disappointed with the ending. hah. the ending is TOO blunt, not like sophie's, but i really think she took some of the ideas from LITTLE WHITE LIES. the storyline looks somewhat the same, except of course, the way of writing is different.



had lun-ner ( lunch + dinner ) earlier just cause we were looking for the drinks ANYTHING and WHATEVER. god. i didnt believe that hanbing didnt know what those are at first. he kept saying.
AMANDA CAN YOU STOP SAYING YOU WANT TO GET WHATEVER OR ANYTHING. ITS SO GENERAL AND IM IRRITATED BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANNA GET.

that kind of stunned us for a while. but hell, we told him anyway(:

we went to 7-11 to check it out but we didnt see it on the shelves. one of us suggested asking the cashier.. but no one knew how to rephrase it.

AUNTIE. DO YOU HAVE WHATEVER HERE.?
AUNTIE. DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING HERE.?

AUNTIE, DO YOU HAVE THE DRINK WHATEVER HERE.?
AUNTIE, DO YOU HAVE THE DRINK ANYTHING HERE.?

but we decided not to cause.. that auntie's kind of old and shes a chinese speaker. but.. rephrasing it in chinese..

AUNTIE. NI YOU MEI YOU WHATVER.?
AUNTIE. NI YOU MEI YOU ANYTHING.?

sounds super QIAN BIAN right. seriously. so we decided not to, and headed to the foodcourt for some foooood.!

... right. drinks lady.

HI WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO DRINK.?
everyone giggles*
aik : WHATEVER:D
auntie : *diao us and leave*

oh god. she thought we were being RUDE to her. haii. people. they should watch more commercials and BRING IN MORE VARIETY OF DRINKS.

PLUS. those INVENTORS of ANYTHING and WHATEVER.

its on PURPOSE isnt it.?! its to make the stupid ordering of drinks sound STUPID.?!

auntie : what would you like to drink.?
customer : whatever/anything.

god. they're making the people RUDEEEE.

okay. gotta get back to homework. was hoping i would have someone to talk to when i get online today but wow. first time there isnt anyone online that i can talk to with. blehh. so. homework it shall be(:

thank god for the life, the friends, even my BF, teachers, parents, my EVERYTHING.

dear lord,

i do hope everything would go smoothly for my dear ah pek, whom is really having such a terrible time these few days. i hope that his problem would be resolved soon, and i hope to see a smile on his face everyday when i get to school(:

PLUS. i do hope he wouldn't do anything SUICIDAL. please bless him.

thank you my dear lord. amen. i love you:D

amanda<3
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`21
Monday, May 21, 200712:03 PM
haii. i tried to write a letter to xinyi today.

telling her maybe we should just. be friends again. since its only 4 months till we have to leave.

but rawr. i ended up writing another letter JUST like that 8-pages one.

shit.
im giving up on it.
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`20
Saturday, May 19, 20071:58 AM
getting bored out of my wits. some quizes to entertain myself while JT and SH finally settles with THEIR blogs.

[ taken from lamer friendster people =x ]

QUIZ ONE(:

"The Most Personal Survey Ever."

1. Who were you with last night?
didnt go out -.-

2. What woke you up this morning?
nick.

3. Where are you?
Bedroom.

4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
guess not. HOMEWORKK):

5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
rawr.

6. When was the last time you cried?
day before.

7. Ever thrown up in public?
nope.

8. Passed out because of alcohol?
yep(:

9. Who's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
pikachu):

10. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
haha. yea. 3 most important people in my life(:

11. Where would you like to live?
good question.

13. What do you want to be when you
grow up?
physiotherapist(: hopefully ):

15. Who is your number one?
cant answer this.

16. Have you kissed your number 1?
NO.! RAWR.!

17. Who was the last person that left
you a comment?
colin(:

19. Do you like candy necklaces?
Yes.

20. When was the last time you fell
over or ran into something?
yesterday(:

21. Do you listen to music every day?
Yes.

22. What was the last thing you ate?
sweets(:

23. Are you a fast typer?
guess so.

24. About how many people have you
liked?
lala.

26. What are you doing this weekend?
STUDY):

27. Whats your favorite type of soda?
i dont drink soda-.-

29. Have you ever won an award?
Yes.

30. What do you want to do right now?
SLEEEEEEEP

31. Are you listening to music right
now?
yes.

32. Do you like someone right now?
ARGH

34. How long 'til your birthday?
too long to count -.-

35. When were you the saddest in your
whole life?
the biggest fight ever with my best friend):

36. What time is it?
1.29AM

37. Do you use Ebay to buy or sell?
sell.

38. What makes you mad?
insulting POKEMON):<

39. Have you ever had a song written
about you?
no idea.?

40. What song makes you cry?
whole lot. depends on my mood really.

41. What song makes you happy?
thanks for the memories(:

42. What do you like to listen to
before you go to bed?
CIRCLE CIRCLE DOT DOT(:

43. Do you have a job?
Nahs.

45. If you were a crayon what color
would you be?
Pink(:

46. What makes you happy?
when my life is back on track.

47. Whats the next CD you're gonna get?
LP's minutes to midnight.

[Height:]
162.8cm.

[Hair:]
black.

[Eye Color:]
Dark brown.

[Piercings:]
2 ): i want MORE.

[Wearing right now?]
pajamas.?

[What taste is in your mouth?]
toothpaste

Words to describe 2007?
SUCKS

Favorite color in 2006?
pink(:

Summer 2006?
.?

Honestly, do you miss 2006?
yes i do.. ):

QUIZ 2 :

THIS ONE ISN'T A JOKE, IT ACTUALLY
HELPS YOU FIGURE OUT A COUPLE OF
KEY
THINGS,Either grab a writing utensil
and something to write on, or
just
remember your anwers.Apparently this
is 99.9% TRUE Don't peek at
the
answers, cause it ruins it.
1)If your
Straight write the first
name of a person of the opposite sex
that pops into your head,if your
Gay
write the name of the person of the
same sex that pop's into your
head,if your Bi write the name of the
first person that pop's into
your
head....(it has to be the first)

--> colin ( last person to comment me. is he still online oO?)

2)
Which is your favorite color
out of red, black, blue, green, yellow?

--> blue

3) Your first
initial?

--> A

4) Your month of birth?

--> January

5)
Which color do you
like
more, black or white?

--> Black

6) Name of a
person of the same sex as
yours.

--> Xinyi

7) Your favorite number?

--> 7

8) Do
you like
California
or Florida more?

--> florida

9) Do you like the
lake or the ocean
more?

--> lake

10) Write down a wish. (A
realistic one).

--> i wish my life would be back on track.

ARE
Y0U
D0NE?

THE
ANSWERS

1. You are completely in love
with this person.

--> HUH.!?

2. If you
choose:Red - You are alert and your
life is full of love.Black - You
are conservative and aggressive.Green -
Your soul is relaxed and you
are
laid back.Blue - You are spontaneous
and love kisses and affection
from
the ones you love.Yellow- you are a
very happy person and give good
advice to those who are down.

--> okay..

3. If
your initial is:A-K You have a
lot
of love and friendships in your life.L-
R You try to enjoy your life to
the maximum and your love life is soon
to blossom.S-Z You like to help
others and your future love life looks
very good.

--> right..

4. If you were born
in:Jan-Mar: The year will go very well
for you and you will discover
that
you fall in love with someone totally
unexpected.April-June: You will
have a strong love relationship that
will not last long but the
memories
will last forever.July-Sep: You will
have a great year and
will experience a major life changing
experience for the good.Oct-Dec:
Your love life will not be too great,
but eventually you will find your
soul mate.

--> LIAR.

5. If you chose...Black:
Your life will take on a
different direction, it will seem hard
at the time but will be the best
thing for you, and you will be glad
for the change.White: You will
have a
friend who completely confides in you
and would do anything for you,but
you may not realize it.

--> TRUE.!

6. This person
is your best friend.

--> oh god. a used to be.?

7. This is how
many close friends you have in your
lifetime.

--> haha. thank god(:

8. If you
chose:California: You like
adventure.Florida: You are a laid back
person.

--> i guess.

9. If you chose:Lake: You are
loyal to your friends and to
your love. And you are very
reserved.Ocean: You are spontaneous
and like
to please people

--> yay(:

QUIZ 3 :

Test yourself to see how many % Nerd
and how many % ah lian/beng you are:

NERD QUIZ:
[x]you wear spectacles.
[ ]you push all your fringe to the
back.
[x]never put makeup when going out.
[ ]don't know how to dress up.
[ ]tuck in your shirt all the time.
[ ]your skirt is friggin' long.
[ ]you don't wear ankle socks.
[x]you like reading.
[ ]you study all day long.
[ ]you don't own a computer.
[ ]you study more than you play.
[x]never hands in homework late.
[x]turns up for school punctually.
[x]hates your hair to be messy.
[ ]always have an extra pin/clip in
bag.
[x]don't hang out with the popular.
[ ]you carry a haversack.
[ ]you're teacher's pet.
[ ]you never failed a test before.
[ ]first thing you do when you come
home is homework.

SCORE:7/20

LIAN/BENG QUIZ:
[]you prefer contact lenses than
specs.
[ ]you're a makeup professional.
[x]you like dressing up.
[x]you don't like tucking in your
shirt.
[x]you own many mini skirts.
[x]you wear socks below your ankle.
[ ]you hate reading books/studying.
[ ]you despise ugly people/nerds.
[x]you own several/one computer.
[x]you play more than you study.
[ ]hands in work late occasionally.
[ ]you have been late for school
before.
[x]you drink/smoke/take drugs.
[x]don't bring extra pins/clips.
[ ]hangs out with popular people in
your class.
[x]you have a slingbag/handbag.
[ ]all teachers don't care/despise you.
[x]you failed countless tests before.
[x]you come home and play computer
than do homework.
[]Have been in many relationships

SCORE:11/20

mutiply the number of each section by
5 to show you how many % you are.
write your percentage as the subject
title.

`for girls 35%nerd,55%lian.

QUIZ 4 :

You're supposed to get below 40 points
in total to
be considered an angel [guai kia] n if
its over..you are a DEVIL [pai kia]

1)smoked b4 [ ]
2)drink alcohol b4 [x]
3)slept with someone of the opposite
sex(not have sex) [x]
4)slept with someone of the same sex[x]
5)gotten into any fights [x]
6)kissed someone of the opposite sex
b4 [x]
7)kissed someone of the same sex b4 [ ]
8)had someone in your room of the
opposite sex [x]
9)scold vulgarities [x]
10)bought porn [ ]

TOTAL: 7

11)take drugs b4 [ ]
12)hate going to the doctors [x]
13)lied to your parents [x]
14)lied to a friend [x]
15)sneak out of the house [x]
16)done something illegal [x]
17)cut yourself []
18)hurt someone []
19)wished someone to die []
20)seen someone die []

TOTAL: 5

21) missed curfew [x]
22) stayed out all night []
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by
yourself []
24) been to a therapist [ ]
25) been to rehab [ ]
26) dyed your hair [ ]
27) received a ticket []
28) been in a wreck [ ]
29) been to a club []
30) been to a bar []

TOTAL: 1

31) been to a wild party []
32) seen the Mardi Gras [ ]
33) had a fight [x]
34) had a spring break in Florida [ ]
35) sniffed anything [ ]
36) wore black nail polish before []
37) worn wrist bands [ ]
38) wore t-shirts with band names []
39) wore black eyeliner []
40) own a 50 cent CD [ ]

TOTAL: 1

41) hugged someone of the opposite sex
[x]
42) hugged someone of the same sex [x]
43) gone out with someone of the
opposite sex [x]
44) gone out with someone of the same
sex [x]
45) stole something [x]
46) been too drunk to remember
anything [x]
47) blacked out [x]
48) fainted [ ]
49) had a crush on your neighbour [ x ]
50) had someone else snuck into your
room []

TOTAL: 8

51) snuck into someone else's room []
52) had a crush on someone of the same
sex [ ]
53) had gone and watched movies with
friends [x]
54) dry humped someone [ ]
55) been called a sl*t [ ]
56) called someone a sl*t[]
57) installed speakers in your car []
58) broke a mirror [ ]
59) showered at someone of the
opposites sex's house []
60) brushed your teeth with someone
else's toothbrush []

TOTAL: 1

61) consider Mac,Dr Dre, e40 or Mistah
Fab your favorite rapper [ ]
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
[]
63) going out with friends to the mall
[x]
64) skipped school [x]
65) had an eating disorder [ x ]
66) had hurt yourself b4 [x]
67) gone to court [ ]
68) walked out of a restaurant without
paying []
69) caught something on fire [ ]
70) lied about your age [x]

TOTAL: 5

71) owned an apartment [ ]
72) cheated on your
boyfriend/girlfriend [ ]
73) cheated with someone [x]
74) got in trouble with the police [ ]
75) talked to a stranger [x]
76) hugged a stranger [ ]
77) kissed a stranger [ ]
78) rode in the car with a stranger []
79) been sexually harassed [ ]
80) been verbally harassed [x]

TOTAL: 3

81) met face to face with someone you
met online [x]
82) stayed online for 12 hours
straight [x]
83) talked on the phone for more than 6
hours [x]
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight
[x]
85) been to a fair [x]
86) been called a bad influence [x]
87) been cursed [x]
88) prank called someone [x]
89) laid in the bed with someone of the
opposite sex []
90) cheated on a minor test eg.
spelling, class test etc.[x]

TOTAL: 9

91) cheated on homework [x]
92) held hands with someone of the
same sex [x]
93) wants to be dead [ x ]
94) cuts yourself b4 []
95) hated yourself before [ x ]
96) had a crush on someone 10 years
older than you [ ]
97) had a crush on someone[x]

total: 5

i am 45% bad influence .
5% PAST GUAI KIA X)

QUIZ 5 :

Pick the line of the month when you
> were
> born:
>
> January: i WANNA TOUCH YOU
> February: i WANNA DANCE WiTH YOU
> March: i WANNA TAKE YOU TO SEX HEAVEN
> April: i WANNA MARRY YOU
> May: i WANNA HOLD YOUR HAND
> June: i WANNA LiCK YOU
> July: i WANT YOUR BODY
> August: i WANNA MAKE YOU MINE
> September: i WANNA RUB YOU
> October: i WANNA SEX YOU
> November: i WANNA LOVE YOU
> December: i WANNA KISS YOU
>
>
> Now take the day you were born:
>
> x1. WiTH KiWi
> x2. AT THE POST OFFiCE
> x3. iN THE BATH TUB
> x4. ON THE ROOF
> x5. WENEVER WHERE EVER
> x6. ON A PARK BENCH
> x7. BETWEEN THE LEGS
> x8. iN A CAR
> x9. IN THE HOT TUB
> x10. iN THE LAUNDRY ROOM
> x11. on The GRasS
> x12. WiTH sTrAWBERRieS
> x13. AT A GAS STATiON
> x14. iN THE STATiON WAGON
> x15. iN THE ATTiC
> x16. AT WoRLdS Of fUn
> x17. ALL NiGHT LONGSTRAWBERRiES
> x18. iN THE DRESSiNG ROOM
> x19. iN THE RAIN
> x20. everywhere and anywhere
> x21. iN THE SHITS
> x22. iN THE BASEMENT
> x23. iN THE BACK OF A CAR
> x24. WiTH WHiPCREAM N CHERRiES
> x25. ON THE STAiRS
> x26. ON THE COUNTER
> x27. ON THE WAY TO SCHOOL
> x28. iN A CLOSET
> x29. ON ViDEO CAMERA
> x30. ON THE TOiLET
> x31. iN AN ELEVATOR

-->
I WANNA TOUCH YOU IN THE CAR.

OH GOD. im sick -.-

off to BED.
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`19
12:11 AM
what should i do.. i've gone through a hell lot this week, whether it is AH or my studies, both sucked.

studies.. i dont know. it isnt good at all. nothing is. i just got scolded from my mom earlier for not finishing even ONE assessment book on chinese ( 'O's starts on 28th may for chinese ) and not reading that chinese oral thing to prepare for my exams. i really REALLY want to do all those but it just seems that..

I CANT SEEM TO FIND THE TIME.!

its true. i cant seem to find the time for all those now. struggling with my tuition homework to do all my a maths once all over again, to learn my chem.. chinese preparation, school homework.. a maths.. its all TOO MUCH TO HANDLE.! theres hardly even TIME to read anything, let alone do all those work.

now even time for sleeping or PEEING is so hard to find ):

the accumulted stress.. oh god. its hard to handle. but i remembered what kor said. god will always be with you(: i shall remember that. hah.

AH.. i've been having alot of stress over him. this week we almost. yea. you know. but i failed. I KNOW. i know i really should. everyone is telling me that. even people like RYAN or NEVIN is like. telling me to do so INDIRECTLY. i know i should have done it. i should still do it. i should do WHAT i want to do.

thing is, i dont know what i really want.

sometimes i just go like. argh. lets just get over and done with. sometimes i dont even want to. thats why i tried on wed ( is it.? ) despite the other half telling me to stop. but i didnt succeed. he seem to be so.. sad.

rawr larh. i cant stand sad people.

so well. im still stuck in the middle of everything. do i really want this or not.? is it affecting me.? for the time being, its only affecting me EMOTIONALLY, not physically or whatever. so my homework and all is NOT affected. thank goodness.

leow. i've been thinking really long. i've read the letter and it only left me blank in the end. why.? i really really think of you as such a best friend you can no longer be any HIGHER in that post than anyone else. i know its not possible to be THAT important to you because. well you're you, and im me.

i really thought of writing the letter here cause it saves time and ink ( i've been buying pens this whole week and they seem to keep running out of ink. ) but i guess.. maybe im stupid or something, but i really wanted you to keep the letter i wrote to you as a memory.

i really dont want you to forget me.
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`18
Thursday, May 17, 20071:26 AM
right. i tried leow. i really did. but it isnt working out at all. there were some.. arguments and all. you saw me today, which got me distracted from everything.

well i tried today, at the foodcourt. but well. im giving him a month to redeem himself.

but the question is.
if i did end it there, would you continue to be my friend.?

i really want to know that answer. your presence gave me a bit of hope that i might end it today but well. due to certain EVENTS, i couldnt end it.

blahh larh ):

anyway, today isnt a bad day at all. not only was I having problems, WC was having problems with .. yea. so like. we're all on the same boat and stuff larh and poor addie became our CONSULTANT. hah. beat that.

yea right. though we were caught for.. talking. hah =x

whatever. like who gives a damn for chinese =x

and blah larh. my results were TERRIBLE. seriously. i failed PHYSICS, CHEM AND A MATHS.

see the improtance of those three subbys.?
in fact, i think they're the MOST important subbys.

oh great. i really gotta work hard from now on. NO BREAK FOR AMANDA DURING THE JUNE HOLS.

better study or ELSE.!!

><
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`17
Sunday, May 13, 20073:51 PM
i hate it.
i lost the closest friend in my life over a losing bet.
the results are gonna be out.

whose the predicted loser.?

ME.
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`16
Saturday, May 12, 200712:40 AM
im elated today. though i had to stone in that cold music room for HOURS, at least the last event was really REALLY such a happy thing i almost died smiling.

omgomg. i really cant believe i read that msg.

i mean. OMGOMGOMG. i finally waited for that day.! i thought it would never come.!

and BLEH. caroline you're EVIL. you know i cant contain my happiness AND i had to act in front of yaya so that i wouldnt look SO happy. damn you. -.-

plus, thank god i didnt cry in front of you. i cried at home:D:D:D:D yyayayayaa. OVERJOYED.:D

i have finally waited for the DAY i have enough stakes to buy you back(:


AND. stupid course. damn those 3 instructors. all have something against pokemon one ):
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`15
Thursday, May 10, 200712:07 AM
oh wells. mugging for my exam at the VERY LAST MINUTE is DEFINATELY NOT working.

but whatever. i flunk everything already. what can i do =.=

anyway, i just found out some horrible truths of my FAMILY. well. yea. i shall not mention here.
hahaha that chinese saying. dont hang your UNDERWEAR outside.?! OR SOMETHING.

ok fine. just say it. i suck at chinese ):

hahah. anyway, i read through the letter again before passing it to pt tomorrow. i really hope i wont regret this and i hope she wouldnt betray me at all. well. even if she did, i guess she wouldnt make a difference at all. i mean, whether she passed it to her or not, she still wouldnt talk to me right.?

right.

i intended to type the entire letter out cause. i cant take it anymore. damn letter is making me feel so.. heavy. i guess i'll say it one day when i have the courage to. all my confessions and truths. ):

anyway, it took me really long to realise who anon was. really. how could i even forget. but i hope even if you do know that i know who you are, please dont leave ):

amanda misses you.!

* IF i got the identity wrong AND i said all that to the wrong person then.. OMGGGG. but at the same time.. I DONT KNOW THE IDENTITY so.. if it means anything to you [ the words above ] means i got the right guy(: *
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`14
12:03 AM
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Create your own Friend Test here


think you know me.? hahahahaha. simple test for all:D

BUT. if you do FAIL this one.

gawd i'll cry ):

DADDY AND UNCLE. you two had BETTER not fail x)
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`13
Friday, May 04, 200711:18 PM
god. this week had been soooo super hectic that i dont even have the time to even DREAM. yes DREAM.

the midyears are already here and amanda is NOT prepared for it.!

familiar.? i know it happened last year, and the year before.. and the previous..

OK SINCE WHEN HAVE I PREPARED BEFORE HAND.

i HAVE to train myself to do that someday. no wait. FROM NOW ONWARDS.

whatever.

these few days i've been sleeping really REALLY late at night, or rather, early in the morning.! i've been studying damn hard(:

sounds nice.? yea right. studying JUST before the exam. now it doesnt sound nice anymore does it. hah.

anyway, i screwed my chem today. seriously i did. im so super sure i would just get something like. 30/100 or less. really. THAT is how bad it is.

god i feel like dying. hah.

oh wells. there is still chinese, physics and a maths to go. RAWRR~! this time, NO MORE LATE NIGHT STUDYING.

amanda is turning into a panda): MY POOR EYES, NECK, BRAIN ( if i even have one ) WHATEVER.!!

and uncle you're so right. i've been drinking and peeing, drinking and peeing but still. IM STILL SICK. and i really think its due to me sleeping late at night ):

NOOOOOOOOO IM DOWN WITH A FLU ):

lalala. tomorrow's my one month(: happy one month to me:D

CHERYL IM GONNA SEE YOUUU~!

NOTE : i wouldnt be going online on msn often now. amanda is mugging. her HOBBY now. zZz.
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`12
Tuesday, May 01, 20079:05 PM
hurhur. mothers' day is coming and im here to help you all come up with SOMETHING to get for her(;

well unless you dont celebrate mothers' day or buy her any gifts * shrugs *

but whatever. hahahha. my mom just created some really nice jewelery for OTHER MOMS ( ? ) for their DAYS. hah. here are some pics(:

$12 per pair, made of sawroski pearls(:

( in other words, man-made pearls )

$15 for this pair, made of new jade and crystal(:



this bracelet is made of crystal too and rodium silver. very suitable for girlfriends. hoho(:

$18 for this one, DEFINATELY WORTH IT:D

it even comes with this really pretty pouch(:

actually im kind of jealous that my mom isnt giving me THAT bracelet instead of selling it. RAWRR. oh wells hahahahha. =x

anyway, you guys can contact me via msn or e-mail, suay_gal@hotmail.com if you're interested in buying these for your mothers, girlfriends, friends WHATEVER. hurhur.

tata all(: tomorrow theres school:D
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