sometimes.
you feel as if you've gotten the world in your hands.
the world you've always wanted to have.
when suddenly, just before you can do anything to it.
it crashes on the floor.
breaking into millions of heart-breaking pieces.
piercing and stinging the people around you.

sometimes.
its better if you never had that world before.
before it breaks the hearts of people around you.
before it breaks YOUR own heart.
before it kills YOU.

everything happens for a reason.
and mine happened because of me.
and because of me.
i've killed the many hearts around me.
this pain alone is enough to drown me.
worse.
i've killed my own.