alright. i know this is really stupid but, this is like the first time using a laptop to post a blog post which i feel is DAMN cool cause this laptop ain't my dad's. its MINEEE. WHEEEEE:D

anyway, things have been going uhhh, not so well for me)): i've been stressed and stretched so hard in citibank that it kind of snapped yesterday. i couldnt stop thinking of how useless i am, that i cant meet the deadlines.. it just drove me crazy that day. i couldnt stop biting my fingers to hold back my tears, my thoughts. i even teared every now and then, and it kind of sucked cause i have to hide and pretend that i just yawned or something. things are just not going so right for me. it just sucks when work isnt working out for you. im leaving in a month's time. thats so bloody long, i cant wait to leave and start studying like, NOW.

but before that, i really feel like having a day off and sit at the beach doing exactly NOTHING. let the sea breeze brush my hair, smell the sand, the sea, the coconuts on the tree, stare into the sky and watch the clouds mould themselves into shapes.. doesnt it sound soo good.? or maybe im too stressed to think thats almost heaven. haha. a life like that, how great((:

today was like, the best day i ever had since i started being a poucher. piggy came down to not only see me during lunch, but also after work, just to walk me home((: thats so sweet piggy:D although i kind of passed him my unhappiness a bit, but he took it willingly and soon we're both ok:D wheee.! i've had so much fun today. thank you SO much piggy:D

tomorrow i hope i can meet weichan. i cant wait.! i havent seen her in like, weeks man.! it almost feels like a year.!! if tomorrow i cant see her, i'll probably start suffering from weichan withdrawal symtoms)): is that how you spell that.?

i love my lappy, my piggy, weichan, and the beach:D

OH YES, I MUST ALSO THANK CLEMENT AND DARYL FOR TODAY.

clement : thank you SO much for helping me SO much. it looked almost impossible to complete THIS much but you DID.! it helped me with my workload alot.! thank you:D

daryl : thanks for checking if im ok every once in a while.! i appreciate it very much((: thank you for the care and concern:D