Hello world, here I am sitting waiting for giles and my mind filled with what projects I'm supposed to finish. I should really relax a little. I'm starting to think that I might be reverting to my old self - NERD!

Oh my god that word makes me remember the times when I had my fringe high up, nerdy specs and of course, the tucked in shirt and high cut skirt.

Gees, how did I manage to LIVE with all that kind of thing when I was younger? Especially the specs, I look like a total geek!

Which then again reminds me of my old pal, whom I take as non-existant now. She may still be alive somewhere doing something I have no clue of, but somehow I want to know what she has been up to, to make sure life is doing ok for her. She may have been horribly mean to me in the past but.. What can I say? If she didnt put me in those situations, I won't be here the way I am now.

Which then again ALSO reminds me of my old group of friends who have also disappeared from my life. All 6 of us used to be so close, great friends before.. Lots of things happened. The last girl from that group is also lost, due to some non-important, childish matters. We're all human, I can't even complain.

I stand before all of you now, in the way I am now, and I feel so confident and great that I don't regret anything I've done in the past. How I've 'hurt' my pal in the 'olden days' are no longer haunting me, and parting from the rest of them made it seem like I'm up to building my own territory. I've made new friends, like weichan and chernyu and even yuanting, who has taught me lots of things and Giles by my side. I don't need nor care who I've lost and I only make the effort to cherish who really cares about me.