hah. days hasnt been going well for people too i guess.

im super worried for my dear ah pek ): [ uncle and daddy, he's your FATHER ].
it seems that something really REALLY bad has happened and he looked really dull with puffy eyes in school today.

god i feel so like. im not his friend at all. not because he doesnt tell me things or whatsoever. its just that.. it feels like i can never be with him in times of need. we're always like. CROSSING EACH OTHER.! a little like, when i walk left, he walks right. hah. you get the picture.

whatever it is, i do hope i can help him with his problem.. though i dont know whats going on, but seeing my ah pek so hurt in school makes me wanna cry ): MY DEAR AH PEK CANNOT CRY LAAA. so old liao. later what if he gets sick.!? and PLUS. what if he decides to do silly things.! it'll be... WHITE HAIR-ED PEOPLE SENDING BLACK HAIR-ED PEOPLE OFF [ im older than him though.. im his grand daughter. hah ]

i knew i should come online at 11 sharp. stupid compo. arghhh. then i wouldnt have missed seeing you online. goddd laaa. well. i'll pray for you my dear, please take care AND MAKE SURE I DONT LOSE AN AH PEK.

or should i say, my only grand father ):

yep. problems for me are already solved(: at least i listened, i made the first move. i gave her the sweet, purely because i thought she might like it ( since its hello kitty ) so well, she was happy i guess.. but i heard she was scared at first, because of the letter attached behind it.

god. do i write frightening letters.?
maybe i do. =/

but to hell with that, at least she said HI to me. THOUGH SHE WASNT LOOKING AT ME, she still said it right. hah.

but hey.! it just shows.. it might work well.. or it might not. but whatever. seriously. since we only have this few months to go, if we continue to fight this cold war, hah. both of us would freeze to death even before we know who is the winner. i've already vent my anger on clement yesterday, who was quite a good punching bag, cause hes darn cool HAH. but lalalala. thanks hawtie for my LP(:

and. aik. hah. at least im okay with him now. i told peiting my story. and for the first time in MY life, she actually understood me. hah. only maybe i shouldnt use FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE but its true.! its like. SHES THE ONLY PERSON WHO AGREED. like who actually agreed to what i really felt. im not accusing the others of not being understanding and all. i know they do care. they all do. but it just seems that.. well i dont know. peiting isnt fond of aik either, but she knows why im doing everything im doing now, and im glad to say she supports me.

oh god. its been a while since i had someone supporting me ( IN SCHOOL ) for the things i do.
i still miss you leow.

and well. there. my life. not that screwed anymore. i finished this book called LITTLE WHITE LIES, which really suited me, UNFORTUNATELY, and im pretty disappointed with the ending. hah. the ending is TOO blunt, not like sophie's, but i really think she took some of the ideas from LITTLE WHITE LIES. the storyline looks somewhat the same, except of course, the way of writing is different.



had lun-ner ( lunch + dinner ) earlier just cause we were looking for the drinks ANYTHING and WHATEVER. god. i didnt believe that hanbing didnt know what those are at first. he kept saying.
AMANDA CAN YOU STOP SAYING YOU WANT TO GET WHATEVER OR ANYTHING. ITS SO GENERAL AND IM IRRITATED BECAUSE I DONT KNOW WHAT YOU WANNA GET.

that kind of stunned us for a while. but hell, we told him anyway(:

we went to 7-11 to check it out but we didnt see it on the shelves. one of us suggested asking the cashier.. but no one knew how to rephrase it.

AUNTIE. DO YOU HAVE WHATEVER HERE.?
AUNTIE. DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING HERE.?

AUNTIE, DO YOU HAVE THE DRINK WHATEVER HERE.?
AUNTIE, DO YOU HAVE THE DRINK ANYTHING HERE.?

but we decided not to cause.. that auntie's kind of old and shes a chinese speaker. but.. rephrasing it in chinese..

AUNTIE. NI YOU MEI YOU WHATVER.?
AUNTIE. NI YOU MEI YOU ANYTHING.?

sounds super QIAN BIAN right. seriously. so we decided not to, and headed to the foodcourt for some foooood.!

... right. drinks lady.

HI WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO DRINK.?
everyone giggles*
aik : WHATEVER:D
auntie : *diao us and leave*

oh god. she thought we were being RUDE to her. haii. people. they should watch more commercials and BRING IN MORE VARIETY OF DRINKS.

PLUS. those INVENTORS of ANYTHING and WHATEVER.

its on PURPOSE isnt it.?! its to make the stupid ordering of drinks sound STUPID.?!

auntie : what would you like to drink.?
customer : whatever/anything.

god. they're making the people RUDEEEE.

okay. gotta get back to homework. was hoping i would have someone to talk to when i get online today but wow. first time there isnt anyone online that i can talk to with. blehh. so. homework it shall be(:

thank god for the life, the friends, even my BF, teachers, parents, my EVERYTHING.

dear lord,

i do hope everything would go smoothly for my dear ah pek, whom is really having such a terrible time these few days. i hope that his problem would be resolved soon, and i hope to see a smile on his face everyday when i get to school(:

PLUS. i do hope he wouldn't do anything SUICIDAL. please bless him.

thank you my dear lord. amen. i love you:D

amanda<3