emoing.?
hmmm.


today was a big screw up, seeing people i dont really want to see, and GOD. the MISUNDERSTANDINGS.

someone kill me. whats wrong with life.?

happy birthday ch(:

girl, im glad you're able to sort things out even if it means.. crying =/

no.
if time were to turn back.
you still HAVE to tell me.
though its gonna be depressing for the both of us now.
i would still like to know.
beats being in the dark forever.
im serious.
its up to you.
your choice.
if its gonna be hard for you.
then its okay.
even if it means hanging out less with you.
it doesnt matter.
so long you can get your life back on track.
i really dont mind.
take care.
when you're finally ready.
(:
you'll know who to find(:

Luqman is irritating and i hate him(:
you said it
:D

oh god.
words words words.
think think think.
no. way.
there are so many things in my mind now that i cant help thinking.
whats going on.?
and why.
on earth.
am i feeling that way.?

being only a messenger.
i can only help you whenever im needed.

is that. worth it.?

hmmmm.

i dont know whats going on, who and what is saying things about me.
to whoever that person is, im sorry if you feel negative about me.
to her.
well. i cant force you to say everything but the fact that you might be avoiding me breaks my heart.

so be it, life are filled with ups and downs. a fact i have to accept.

ahahahaha. today we had loads of fun and my ears are finally decorated with EARRINGS.
gees.
anyway,
RYAN.
you're fucking lucky.!
i havent seen this thing in like. YEARS.
i mean it. YEARS.
and there it is, all nice and ready for you.
ahahaha. thank god yea.?

anyway, i tried the straightner but erm.
cause my hair is already straightened..
I DONT KNOW IF IT WORKS.
ahahaha.
HAPPY TRYING DUDE(:

I THINK I'LL JUST GIVE IT TO YOU.
since you're such a dear for your music(:

this is what the post was supposed to look like.
ahahahaha. oh wells. i had to post the picture and its made on msn(: thanks to someone. muhahaha.

anyway, sorry i had to leave earlier. mom was back.
(:
cheers.

thanks

oh man. racial harmony was a few days ago isnt it.?
ahahahaha. i took a few pictures with my friends BUT i only have some of them ):
i want em all.!
:D:D

ok here are some pictures i took with ryan(:
I LOOK DAMN AWFUL LA. people, get ready your plastic bags cause you're gonna vomit all the things you've eaten at the sight of ME.



LOOK. I LOOK DAMN NERD.


SEE I LOOK NICER IN THIS ONE. RYAN CHANG.!! TAKE THAT OTHER DISGUSTING PICTURE OFF YOUR BLOG AND FRIENDSTER.!




















i took another lot with a load of others:D


me and nevin. oh gosh i really should have taken off my specs when i take my pictures.

TOTAL NERD ALERT.!



me and luqman. foggy(:







































me, weichan and eezzat.
ahahaha. whats weichan doing.?





























THE UNTIMATE TRIO(:






















me and leow. i look AWFUL in it. and leow, you look DARN angry with me(:

other pictures taken:D
























taken when i wasnt aware.!














converse shoes UNITE(:



it was a great day, that day(:
a day like that wouldnt come anymore BUT
at least you know I'LL MISS ALL OF YA(:

aww.
tomorrow's some stupid racial harmony day.
blehh. cause of that damn day that i have to dress up all nice and neat for the occassion.
ok fine. not that im super racist or whatsoever.
im just well. i find it stupid.
no offence dudes.

anyway, i think im feeling rebellious today. i've decided to..

WEAR THIS MALAY TOP WITH SKINNINES AND MY CONVERSE(:

yay:D i know skinnies/jeans are totally banned from school but HEY. they cant possibly go,
HEY YOU. TAKE OFF YOUR PANTS. ITS BANNED.

gees(: so well. WHO CARES. im only worried for my SHOES. if they're confiscated, I'LL SUE THE SCHOOOOOL.!
after all, they didnt say we cant wear those shoes DURING OCCASIONS RIGHT.?
hah. beat that losers.

fine. anyway, i realised that these few days, i've been feeling down over something i have totally no control over. ryan's right. why should i even CARE. i didnt do anything. but then again, im really touched by what jinting and weichan said to me that day(:

(jinting : the one you wrote in the letter * hope you know which im referring to *)
(weichan : the one you appreciated me for )

i was really REALLY touched. i mean. omgosh. i've been living my life WRONG all these years.! why havent i lived my life THIS way before aik came and ENLIGHTENED me.?

gosh. life's beautiful.
hehe.
oh wells.

uncle GET WELL SOON(:
i totally miss you.!
BLOOD RELATED COUSIN : I WANT YOU ONLINE NOW IMMEDIATELY DUDE.!

i finally found the subscriber i get my signals from.!

JOY TO THE WORLD. :D
amanda is BACK IN ACTION.

but but but. i have this super horrible feeling everytime i get online.
will my mom come creeping behind me.?

gosh. i think i better go now.
SHIT. damn incident is bugging me.!

cheer up bong(:

YEA. I CAN FINALLY COME ONLINE.!
anyway, just to tell everyone, i wouldnt be updating this alot now. cause of..

CERTAIN REASONS.

anyway, life has been going so god damn fluently now and im feeling great:D
there are ups and downs.. but heck them all. most importantly is.
MY LIFE IS BACK ON TRACK WHERE IT FIRST STARTED OUT.
im having great friends, made up with leow(:
ignoring aik like how i've been doing it since.. last year.
parents scolding me and being biased. ( hah ) since. like. FOREVER.
great:D
its DAMN back on track.
and im doing sooooo fine(:

gotta go.!

wow. slack time indeed(:

today we had FUN(:
we pooled today(:
i missed out on the bowling though =x

anyway, BONG PAID FOR MY POOL(: whooo~! it was damnnn joyous la.

FREE GAME:D

ahahaha. my bro and his friend damn sad la.
I TOTALLY FORGOT THAT THEY'RE NOT 16.
in the end they went to dhoby ghaut for like. NOTHING.
hah. small boys.

anyway, i was sooo off form today. i totally like MISSED THOSE OBVIOUS BALLS.
BLEHH. so much for IMPROVING.
weichan came a little too late to join us so we headed to tampines to bowl a little.
DAMNIT. i had to go home early so i missed the entire thing.
damn sian):

NOOO.! the highest point was only WHAT.?! 78, 79.??
NO WAY. if i was there, i would have OWNED big time.!
damnit la. im not there T-T
if not i own, i'll feel damn nice la x)

ahahaha. i am sooo evil(: