tonight, im flying to BEIJING.
i'm really upset.
i have to leave so many of my loved ones behind):
bye all)):
i'll miss my poor boy.
LOL:D

from today onwards at 7pm, DO NOT MESSAGE MY ____9388 number cause it'll be brought to china.
hah.
i'll be back on the 26th so.
I'LL MISS YOU GUYS)):
be good(:

anyway, this post is dedicated to the person who triggered me to say this.
and i cant say it via sms.
but.

its not that i dont want to help you.
or make you lose your dignity.
i know dignity is important to every guy.
but in cases such as this, i'm sure you'll know which must be set to your priority.
is it friendship or dignity.?
using another person's name doesnt help things.
so what if you know things about the other party.?
what does it do to improve the relationship.?
what would happen if the other party knows about this.?
i know we've done this countless times and it was almost easy to hide from everyone.
but seeing that example and comparing it to this, it is no different.
it'll just end up the way it did to the other.
and that would make me carry a guilt for life.

now all i can help you is to end this.
this mistake cannot drag on.
it has already happened once, i dont want it happening another time.
you think im immature, fine.
you think i dont understand things, fine.
you think i think im always right, fine.
perhaps you're right.
perhaps i am immature.
perhaps i dont understand things.
perhaps i think i'm always right.
so be it.
but you know, i'm doing all these for your own good.

for years i've always been there for you.
to listen to your problems.
hear you out.
but i never felt that i've gained your respect.
when you need me, HERE I AM.
when you dont, you disappear from my life.
the reason why i'm always there for you is because you've made a great impact in my life once.
and thats enough to make me be loyal to you always.

you may hate me, blame me.
if you want to take the shorter route, be my guest.
i will try not to cry like you told me not to.
but if you dont, think it again, and clear things out.
since i haven't been of much help to you.
since you've never listened to my advice.
since you've never believed in a word i say until you've checked it out.
my dear, if you're that capable, please dont torture me and work things out on your own.

life is filled with ups and downs.
and life is all about the challenges.
without challenges, life doesnt mean anything.
you dont learn anything.

when you fall, pick something from the ground.
learn something from it and never do it again.

when you're walking on the beach.
and you're blocked by a few boulders.
dont give up.
move them away, and continue you're journey.

thats what i want all of you to be.
thats what i want all of you to become.
please dont fall on the first obsticle.
you have already passed so many obsticles such as learning how to walk, cycle.
these things seem almost impossible to do when you're young.
now its just the same thing.
pick yourself up.
start again.
where have all the courage all of you had inside you, gone to.?

*some quoted from UNCLE.
*some quoted from DADDY.

i just want everyone happy.
i dont want to see unhappy people through my pink shades.

i'll miss you all, especially my poor boy.
study hard.
i'll call you before your exams(: