honestly, today wasnt a good day.
i didnt mean to hide it.
i just hope that no one would worry for me since its such a happy day for everyone.

i consulted timmy, which in my opinion, is right.
it doesnt mean that you'll change something if you're in another person's life.
i always believed that im in someone's life for a reason.
i'll try my best to change a negative point, to make someone happy, anything that makes me feel that its worth it having me in their lives.

this is my first case that isnt like that at all.

i've been really bothered the whole of today.
i want my books back.
i want them now.
i cant take it seeing how all my efforts have gone to a total waste.
i cant take it seeing the ending i dont wanna see.
i cant take it knowing that i've done a horrible job.
have i been a hindrance to you.?
have i been a distraction to you.?
what am i, in your life.?
what am i.?

i want to draw the line as soon as possible.
as soon as possible.
so i hope you'll reply my smses and return my books asap.
if i become even more desperate, i think i'll just let you have them.