OVERPROTECTED - Britney Spears

Spoken:
I need time, (time)
(Love)
Joy
(Joy)
I need space
(Love)
I need me
(Action)

Say hello to the girl that I am
You're gonna have to see through my perspective
I need to make mistakes just to learn who I am
And I don't wanna be so damn protected

There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say what a girl is to do?
gotta need some answers

What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I tell them what I like
What I want
And what I don't
But everytime I do
I stand corrected
Things that I've been told
I can't believe what I hear about the world
I realize I'm o-o-verprotected

There must be another way
Cause I believe in taking chances
But who am I to say what a girl is to do?
God I need some answers

What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so o-verprotected

I need time
Love
I need space (this is it this is it)

I don't need nobody telling me just what I wanna
What I want what what I'm gonna (I need)
Do about my destiny
I say (no no)
Nobody's tellin me just what i wanna (do do)
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be-e
Someone else but me

(action)
(yeah, yeah, yeah)

What am I to do with my life?
(You will find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so overprotected

I don't need nobody telling me just what i wanna
What i want, what what I'm gonna
Do about my destiny
I say (no no)
Nobody's tellin me just what i wanna (do do)
I'm so fed up with people telling me to be-e
Someone else but me

What am I to do with my life?
(You'll find it out don't worry)
How am I supposed to know what's right?
(You just gotta do it your way)
I can't help the way I feel
But my life has been so o-verprotected

hello all:D its been a long time since i've posted and gawd. ever since the day i've recieved my results, my parents are totally overdoing things.

from choosing my courses to hating my friends like, super unreasonably. i mean. how UNREASONABLE can they get.?!

anyway, today was a big change though:D thats cause.. i saw piggy today:D we bought weichan's V DAY GIFT:D *winks* and we had dinner at the hong kong something. not bad the food, and we toyed alot with the milk tea and all. later, we walked around aimlessly and sat near the fountain, where we started to try to make our own lips touch our noses. hahaha. i can even hold a pen in between ok:D piggy you're LOUSY:D

piggy finally brought my hula hoop today:D i am so gonnna practice:D thank you so much piggy:D

today's favourite message:D

PIGGY: cheem haha. you know why we never fight? cause piggy is too sweet and forgiving ( to me ) already.! even when im so lousy, she never gets angry:D

yay:D

another random message that i got kind of shocked ( cause someone already knows my personal life.!? )

CLEMENT SAR : you must be out with your piggy! haha. ok i dont disturb you. good night.! see you tomorrow at the microfilming machine. haha.

hahahaha. smart eh, someone.?

i love my piggy:D

alrights. the results are out and i must say, i felt that i've done unexpectly well for them.! i didn't fail anything, i didnt get my Cs. what can i even ask for.? i've done all i could and now, its time to think of where to head.!

i qualified to get into music and audio, but suddenly i realised that i may not even want to commit to it like, for my entire lifetime. yea, it can be a pretty amazing course, but music. its almost like learning the piano. do it or fail. plus, i cant afford to fail in poly, or i might come out with NOTHING. no diploma, no degree. plus, even IF i do get my diploma, where am i gonna head.? music studios.? its gonna be quite hard for me to actually look for a job so i think i'm crossing music and audio out.

other diplomas. i dont even know what im strong in. having the same grade for EVERY subject doesnt show me which subject i'm strong in at all. but one thing's for sure, physics and social studies CANNOT MAKE IT. so anything to do with physics and ss, i'll cross out.

so now.. i dont really know what i have left. after the talk with my dear piggy ( he made my headache go away by HALF.! thank you sooo much piggy((: ), i've decided to get into a jc. i guess it kind of gives me more time to think of what i wanna be in the future, and also, i have a better chance of getting into a uni. plus, i'm able to get into a jc ( still ) so why not.? i just hope that the good people'll influence me more and the bad people wont ask me out so often:D

i hate to say this also but, if my parents ban me from hanging out a bit more when i get into jc, it'll be good. ( its a fact.! though i really hope it wouldnt happen AT ALL )

anyway, thank you so much piggy and daddy for helping me decide((: piggy was so nice earlier that i didnt really dare tell him i was actually tearing on the phone)): i'm really touched that piggy would do so much for me.

thank you soooo much piggy(: you're the best piggy in the world.

at least, in mine((:

anyway, today was a lazy day to start out with. i didnt feel like doing anything at home till my dear piggy called me((: hahaha. and hey, we're totally feeling the same way yo((: after his call, i prepared for the gathering and headed to raffles town club.

my dad dropped me and my bro off first and we headed to the arcade to have a little fun. changed our money and my bro got me a drink cause i was thirsty ( thanks yo((: ) and he changed money to play in the arcade :D ( i only had 40 cents in my wallet )

we got cheated by the first machine we put in, a racing game. so well, we played a bit of shooting but i died so i stopped. then we tried table soccer and i lost 4:1 just because all the other 4 goals were all done by ME ( i totally own goal-ed)): ) hahaha. but it was fun((:

later, we saw this machine with some really cute plush toys:D we tried it around 4 times before realising that THAT MACHINE IS A TOTAL CHEAT. )): cheat us 4 dollars)):

haha. now i'm back here, with kimi and mimick, and BOY. they're NOISY. i was trying hard to entertain them with my little toys yet they just cant seem to sit still. they're even playing with a SWEET and a RIBBON. haha. such pretty kids((:

piggy's probably getting ready for his cousin's birthday party. i hope i'll get to see him tomorrow.!

today, i had a great time at work, totally working my ass off and NOT SLACKING. i mean, even I cant believe i haven't been slacking for a really LONG time. im always bombarded with a hell loadda paper work and loads of MICROFILMING to do ( now i have an assistant to help me, SUTING:D ). i doubt there'll be a time where we're OUT OF THINGS to DO in a bank. seriously.

then again, i doubt ANY COMPANY would run out of things to do. if not, we can totally close down for the season till work piles up again:D ( that sounds pretty good too.! )

anyway, i totally had a great time working today. i started my day teaching suting how to send boxes and making a mess out of things. we even got scolded by oliver but thats ok, cause we have each other((: *sometimes it feels so good that we can support each other((: pity she's leaving at the end of the week, if not we could really be close friends((:*

later, i had lunch with my dearest PIGGY, who totally can't get enough of me and totally can't kick the addiction of patting his favourite ballball, MY HEAD. anyway, lunch was good. we had lunch in this really nice YONG TAU FU place ( which currently, i still feel like having somemore ) rachel was really nice to actually draw a detailed map of its location and we located it easily:D

after that, we parted and im so sure piggy's so upset cause I WAS.)): it was such a short 'outing' and im really glad piggy decided to make a LONG trip down JUST to have lunch with me:D thank you piggy.!!

after that, work didnt stop BUT i did have a good chat with ryan though. i realised that he's a COMICAL person PLUS, a really nice guy. seriously. he has actually noticed oliver picking on me so many times whereas everyone else in the office are totally oblivious about it. see see.! what did i tell you all.! oliver doesnt like me)):

anyway, ryan and i totally toyed with the printer and sent sooo many copies to alice by accident. we tried a total of 4 times and alice had to recieve THIRTEEN mails.! THIRTEEN.! hahaha. im sure she doesnt trust me on this like. ever again.

at not-so-sharp 5pm, we had a party to celebrate JANUARY BABIES, which means i'm totally involved. they made me carry a nice choc muffin with a candle on it, wearing a BABY BIB. i mean. urgh. i've totally disgraced myself in front of the ENTIRE company.! sugi couldnt stop laughing and she was totally tearing and i had to stop myself from laughing like a mad cow in case someone finds it stupid. we had loads of fun and during that time, i actually got to know this other new staff better:D she's working at our floor and she's new to this whole banking business so found many things to talk about.

oh and one more thing. she graduated from NUS and she's a major in.. CHINESE! omg. its something i can never EVER make it.! like. NEVER.

she looks like a really dense person, which is more of 'please leave me alone' than 'im afraid'. maybe she just looks like that and isnt like that ( im sure of it ) cause when i told her jokes, she DID laugh at them like. really REALLY laughed at them so it means that, either she isnt dense, or my jokes totally cracked her up. i think its both ;)

oh and i missed out a super SUPER important thing.! today, in the morning, my collegues totally surprised me with a belated present and a card.! i cant believe no one told me and i cant say i hate surprises ( i LOVE them :D) its just that i dont know how to react.! i gave them a retarded face and said thank you.. and it was just all so.. weird. really. so in the end, i got these weird looking teddy bear earrings with a really pretty necklace((: thanks guys:D

later, i went home with my mama. she wasnt feeling very well so i didnt do anything to annoy her and hear things out.

i just cant believe that, even when my mom's ill, my dad doesnt wanna drive in to raffles place just cause they charge ERP or something.

seriously, what kind of a lousy husband is he.?!

sometimes when i think of my dad i get really annoyed. what are we to him.? where are his family values.?

the car annoys me the most. i just cant understand why he wants a car when..
1. he doesnt wanna put coupons when he parks somewhere.
2. he doesnt wanna get charged for ERP, CTE whatever.
3. he rather drive to lavender THEN take an mrt to orchard.
4. he would rather wait at eunos to pick us than to drive to parkway or something to pick us up.

all these either shows that.
1. he doesnt even CARE about us.
2. he's trying to save money ( HAH. RIGHT )
3. he just doesnt bother.

in my opinion, he's EVERYTHING on that list EXCEPT saving money. if he saves money. HAH. kiwis can FLY. ( im not saying pigs cause theres already air pork )

sometimes talking about him makes me feel sick in the stomach, i wonder why he's my dad in the first place.

hello all:D firstly, i'd like to say sorry to my dear weichan. i didnt know she looked forward to it so much)):

quote * and I WANNA GO BLADING WITH AMANDA =(
we hardly get to see each other now =(

tomorrow! blading! yay! hope nothing goes wrong o.o*

something DID go wrong and im sorry its so minor and i couldnt turn up)): weichan we'll make it up for it next time ok.?

anyway, the past week's been good.! work's great, workload's pilin' up, AND, i get to see my dearest piggy more:D i mean, how great that is yes:D

i took leave today, to rest abit, head to my dental THEN go out with piggy like EARLIER:D im so nice right:D he got me a present AGAIN.!! this time it isnt as HARD as those pikachus but i couldnt get it right also.!

CLUE #1
- its got to do with a PIG.

CLUE #2
- its 20 bucks

CLUE #3
- its flat/fat.?!

CLUE #4
- piggy wont get jealous over THIS one.

see see.! there are so many related things to this thang.! it can be a soft toy, since 20 bucks for a soft toy IS quite reasonable.! but he wouldnt get me another soft toy since realised he got jealous over SHIT PIG, my other piggy he gave me. it CANT be a KEYCHAIN, cause 20 bucks for a KEYCHAIN is totally DAYLIGHT ROBBERY. so what can it be.? a cup.? wallet.?! ( piggy wallet.?! ) PENCIL CASE.!! or..

we'll just have to see it later:D i'll blog it up when i get to see it ok:D i'm so sure i'll like it:D plus, piggy just edited a song for me which made me smile and laugh soooo happily in the morning. this is such a nice way of spending my morning((:

i dont even need to eat more sweets to make things sweeter;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMANDA HAN:D

haahahhaa. today is MY birthday and it feels like its any ordinary day. i didn't recieve alot of gifts since my collegues didnt know its my birthday PLUS i dont have school anymore.!

but that doesn't matter, cause in the end, i DID have the BEST birthday EVER.

on sunday, my family and i celebrated my birthday in sakae, bugis branch. we enjoyed our time there looking out for *cough*bong*cough* and giving him a hard time and all. but HEY, in the end, it was MOST THRILLING.! i LOVED the ending, which i am not going to say here in case someone reads it and bong dies. then i'll really feel guilty for life.

really, guilty for LIFE.!

after the meal, we actually walked from bugis to lavender:D and walks like that always bond our family together and I LOVE THAT FEELING. *especially since i've been like butter to the family. if you know what i mean*. we did some brisk walking, talking and cracking jokes. how i wish my family members are always this happy. im sure this is one of my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION. is it is it.?

anyway, my dad had the stomachaches cause he ate crab roe, and he totally felt disgusted cause it had a strong smell of.. i dont know what. he needed to shit along the way as we walk but heh. he didnt smear shit all over his pants and the car seat anyway:D

my dad's overseas now but he still sent an sms to wish me a happy birthday(: only, i kind of forgot and i forgot to reply, so he got angry with me.

gees. my dad CAN be really petty at times.

MONDAY, the best day like EVER. i celebrated my birthday with my dear piggy and my mama, WEICHAN:D i was presented with the BEST presents in the UNIVERSE and god, i love them so so much.

my first present i'd like to show all of you is ONE OF A KIND, something you'll never get ANYWHERE, ANY PLACE, not even if you guys had $2397103928107038120372039480239472093820947320498230497234 or even MORE.

i hereby present you, THE PRESENT, from PIGGY:D


if you cant see what it is, its a total of NINE pikachus decorated in cloth, hair ties, seashells and *cough*blu tack*cough*, heres a spastic group of PIKACHUS:D

arent they ADORABLE.?! i LOVE them. i really do.! behind them, the blue bottle is also by my piggy:D and the amandogram:D ( behind the amandogram, a 'niece' and a flower is placed there:D )

this shelf should be called, PIGGY SHELF:D

my present from weichan and piggy is also sooo lovely:D its the pikachu puzzle that i've wanted since.. FOREVER. its so cute:D i'll take a pic of it when i'm done ( i dont even dare tear open the plastic and open the box >< ) anyway, we had a fine dinner at stonegrill, and BOY. the food there is GREAT. i loved the eating part but NOT the cooking part. *the oil flies EVERYWHERE* in the end, piggy and weichan cooked for me. how sweet yes.? :D we had a little brownie that we made it look 'scarecrow-ish' but it doesnt taste so bad((:
see.? its scary looking. we're all not made for sculpturing. really.

Stonngrill was also very nice to throw in a cake for free:D and its made of nuts that start with a p ( i dont remember.! ) and it so happens that its the ONLY nut that i EAT.! how GREAT is that?

hahaha. i dont have the photos but i DO have one retarded looking one:D
the brownie with my retarded piggy:D

hahaha. later, we sent weichan to the bus stop and piggy and i walked home from parkway:D it wasnt too far though it already gave me blisters BUT. there were. COCKROACHES. joy.

im sure walking totally bonds people together. hahaha. i loved the walk:D we talked about SO many things it was so enjoyable.! now i wish my house is located at jurong so we can totally walk from parkway to jurong and have even more time to bond and talk:D

*and get more blisters and meet new cockroach friends*

oh yes, i did get a present from my auntie, and she gave me a FIRE PROOF BAG. can you believe it.!? FIRE PROOF.

alright. it has been quite a long tmie since i've last blogged and BOY, the year 2008 has started quite badly.! many miserable and unhappy things happened in just 5 days but also, there ARE many happy activities that totally buried the unhappy things like, 3120937019381 metres down the Earth((:

piggy had been a WONDERFUL pig this year, planning activites and having meals with me:D thank you piggy((:

just today, piggy and i had a NEW person tagging along with us. GLADYS:D honestly, at first i thought it would be quite easy for us to get along since i've already met her and i know her ( almost ) through piggy.

but no, i wasnt sociable enough for that.!

i'm really sorry but i started out quite cold at first. i didnt know what to talk about and their topics were totally alien to me. in the movies, i could only offer her some chips and drinks and nothing more since well, there really isnt anything to say in the movies right.?

also, today i've been exposed to a new GENRE* of movie and seriously, i think i need to be at least 20+ to actually appreciate such movies. i really didnt get it and it all seemed so weird.

either that or im not artistic enough to appreciate and enjoy it)): *i hope not.!*

haha. we went to play pool together and i tell you, THE TABLE IS JINXED. i dont know why but me and gladys just CANT stop the white ball from going into the holes. it MUST be jinxed.! we're both skilled ok:D unlike *cough*piggy*cough*

fine. i coughed at the wrong area but i hate to admit piggy's better)): and scarier)): and skilled..)):

fine. piggy wins this one.!

today was fun:D my birthday's coming up in 3 days time:D THREE DAYS TIME. muhahaha>=) doubt im going to have loads of presents this year but hey, im turning 17;)

i feel old and 'wrinkled'. HEH.

* movies have GENRES.?! *

i've just recieved a call from someone so important.

PIGGY'S BACK, SAFE AND SOUND.

thank GOD he's SAFE AND HEALTHY. i've been so worried but its all good:D

thank you my dear Lord for blessing him and his family(: my new year starts NOW:D

a start of a new year, 2008.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS.
i've set some new year resolutions this year that i MUST fulfill.!

1. from now onwards, i'm going to blog in PARAGRAPHS, correct spelling ( hopefully i'll learn more vocab through that RICE application from FACEBOOK), and of course, good sentence structure.

i've noticed that my English in the past was so much better as compared to now. plus, my tenses are DEGRADING i dont know what i should do.!

i know. i'll always have piggy((:

2. i hope that i can kick the habit of 'not-being-able-to-complete-a-task-or-project-cause-
i-got-demoralised-or-i-got-bored-of-it' kind of thing.

of course, that would mean that i have to do the things that i actually owe my dear piggy, as well as weichan.!

3. i must MUST make sure i learn how to organise my time and BE PUNCTUAL.

i know i know. i've always been late for everything, and simple things like bathing would take a hell lot of my time.
amanda must learn to organise her time well and make sure theres a bit of time for everything.!

4. SAVE MONEY.
piggy, i know this is important so im stating it here:D right, so i spend a little too much money on everything i shouldnt. today, my mama decided to really REALLY get my 910i even though i insisted on a $0 phone. she said that its not worth getting a $0 phone cause it'll get obscelete even faster.

)): im sorry piggy, i've tried.! at most, i promise i wont ask for anything THIS expensive anymore..
i wont ask for :
1. another ipod (?!)
2. computer ( its okay. i've used this computer for the last 10 years of my life already i think )
3. camera ( i love my pink one((: )

also, i will make sure i'll take care of ALL of my gadgets so my poor mama can save for her diamond.

seriously, i dont see a need to get a diamond but hey, its her money. plus, she's been great so she deserves a treat((:

5. build up family ties and bonds.

thats right. i'm gonna try to show more affections and love to them even though i dont really do this.. but piggy's right. this is important, and all this time i've been showing them the wrong way and it made them worry and think that i'm a rebellious girl and im going astray.

i'll try okay. this one is hard, but i'll try my best.

6. treasure my friends and be more sensitive.

friends are important, and i often get into fights cause im not sensitive enough. i'll try to learn to understand people better so i wont get myself into unnecessary fights and get all unhappy over it. plus, friends are important and i believe i've left out a lot of my old cliques. i'll meet up with them soon((:

7. treat piggy better:D

since we're already 'married', i had better treat him better and not torture his kids with terrible names((:

8. BE MORE WOMANLY.

i cant believe im puting this as my NEW YEAR RESOLUTION cause its almost IMPOSSIBLE. if this is FULFILLED, you'll NEVER get to see the uncouth-ed amanda, with her burps and snorts, and horrifying actions.

i think i may choose not to fulfill this one:D anyway, being the REAL me makes me feel happy always((:

9. BE HAPPIER THAN HAPPY.

i dont know how much more 'happiness' i can squeeze into my life but I WILL:D i think i'll divide my happiness with the people around me THEN i can squeeze in more:D

10. PACK MY ROOM AND ENSURE THAT ITS TIDY AT ALL TIMES.

this is SUPER important cause when i DO pack, the next month its going to get all messed up again and i would have wasted over 24 hrs packing my room again.

i must make sure i put everything back in place once im done with them, throw away unwanted things like plastic bags and BOTTLES.

speaking of BOTTLES, i had better throw my shampoo bottles etc WHEN THEY'RE EMPTY.
i NEVER do. this is so terrible.

no wait, im terrible.!

so right, thats it guys:D all of you shall be my witnesses and make sure i do them well. remind me once in a while so i can keep going or else im going to lose to my habit of 'not-being-able-to-complete-a-task-or-project-cause-i-got-
demoralised-or-i-got-bored-of-it'.

i must not lose.! GO AMANDA GO:D

conversation with my mom earlier.
M : amanda i dont understand you. you're like a FEI nu you know. like a wild girl.
A : thats ok what.
M : i dont like it. you never like PROPER things. you're not a GIRL.
A : but i am.!
M : you're not like a tomboy.. but not a girl. what are you.!?
A : thats why im special mummy((:
M : whatever, seriously.

im special:D